NANO2011 Extract by YoullNeverUnderstand, literature
Literature
NANO2011 Extract
I watched out the window as the clouds drifted casually through the dark sky. The sun was slowly setting as day became night and I became more and more scared. I listened to the sound of the cars rushing along the busy main road, everyone with somewhere to go, whether it be home to their family or out to see their friends. What I'd give right now to be in my car off to my boyfriends for the night. Instead I'm led here, no place to run or hide. Thoughts of today fill my head, and thoughts of way back then. I thought the past was forgotten, done. Little did I know that it would come back to haunt me like this. I hadn't really meant to tell her
How can you say that and then leave? Ignore me when I call your name. Knowing you've just hurt me so bad. I can feel the paranoia kicking in. I've tried to avoid this for so long. I really have but it's hard. I can't keep tabs on you, but I still keep trying. I wish I could take control of what you do. Make this easier, make my pain go away. Trouble is I know that would hurt you more and destroy whatever 'us' we have left. My eyes sting like hell from tears that can't come out. It feels like I cry too much but not enough. I know all you'll do is laugh at me. I guess that's what hurts the most.
Kian and Scarlett by YoullNeverUnderstand, literature
Literature
Kian and Scarlett
Ross, Holly and I eat our sandwiches on the grass. Kian laughs.
"I'm not sure of anything" he says.
The ache in the pit of my stomach is back and the light is fading, streaking the sky with ice.
"Well I didn't promise exactly" Scarlett says
She's been looking at darkness, he is sitting on a rock beside the water. Kian stares into the fire, his face highlighted in the rain
"Please stay" she whimpers
"I'm disappointed in you Scarlett, you promised me"
"You made your choices" She replied.
You knew I didn't need him, even when my life was falling apart in front of my eyes.
"Perhaps your right" Scarlett said uncertainly, "How did it go so
It's not even fair. You have it all and i'm stuck here with nothing. When you left you took with you almost every part of me. You took away my reason to breathe. Yet you don't even realize. Since you left, I've hardly left my room. Haven't left the house. Not if I could help it. You however, have hardly been home. I've heard about your adventures, all the places you've been. It kills me that i'm not there to experience it with you. I doubt you've ever given me a second thought. My name is just a name to you now. When before it meant so much. I believed in us, I thought you did too. Then bigger and better things came along. I never knew you we
It all started on that fateful day six years ago. There, was that line good enough? When they told me to write about things, I didn't imagine it was going to be this hard. I knew it was never going to be easy. Maybe I didn't expect thinking about it to bring up as many emotions as it has. Anyway whilst trying to start the story, and all that was in my head was 'once upon a time' but I assure you this ain't no fairytale. Far from it. I guess I should introduce myself; otherwise I'll just be another person. I guess to you that's all I am. I have a name. Although I heard when people read books they give each character their own name, or relate t
I'm living life within these swarms of people,
but to me they are all just strangers by my side.
I'm laughing at the jokes that they find funny,
but secretly i'm breaking down inside.
I'm searching for a place where I belong,
but you're the only one who really makes me smile.
I'm hoping for the future that I dream of,
but I know I need to work for it and try.
And now
The illusion has been shattered,
Thrown out the window,
Like that mirror that used to live on your chest of drawers.
You were like my mirror,
I saw in you all the traits I believed I held,
Good and bad.
I discovered alot about myself,
Whilst I was finding out about you.
Rumour has it 'opposites attract',
Maybe we were just too alike.
I didn't ever expect it to be like this.
End like this.
I picked up the pieces of the mirror,
I'm not sure I can do the same now.
I love you more than you'll ever know. You are my life, despite all the crap that comes in between. You make me so mega happy, that the crap almost seems worth it.
Almost.
Things between us are complicated, but i'm beginning to get used to that. Every day is unpredictable, and the ups and downs are pretty huge. Mostly it's my fault, and i'm trying to change.
But change takes time.
You've made alot of promises, i'm not sure you can keep. I wonder how long it will be before you get bored of my lies. I should stop lying really.
But i'm not used to telling the truth.
Sometimes I wish things had worked out differently between us. I often sit and wonder what would have happened, had obstacles not got in the way.
Had things not changed.
Maybe I would be happier, had I made a different decision. Although it's only your happiness that matters. I hope I was right to have left you so blissfully unaware.
To get on with your life.
I'm gonna try not to dwell on it. For had I wanted to change my decision I could have done, at any given moment. I still could, but i don't think I will.
Life goes on.
I used to think you had it perfect. Now I realise I may be wrong. Your just better at hiding everything than most people I know.
Makes me jealous. To be honest.
I've begun to realise you don't see what I see, but maybe i'm just seeing wrong. Whilst I was caught up in the perfection that you portray so damn easily.
To you it's just how your life has been.
Truth is, I don't know you well enough yet. Maybe you won't let me into your life, or maybe i just don't want to be there. I'm not entirely sure.
Guess we'll see what happens.
NANO2011 Extract by YoullNeverUnderstand, literature
Literature
NANO2011 Extract
I watched out the window as the clouds drifted casually through the dark sky. The sun was slowly setting as day became night and I became more and more scared. I listened to the sound of the cars rushing along the busy main road, everyone with somewhere to go, whether it be home to their family or out to see their friends. What I'd give right now to be in my car off to my boyfriends for the night. Instead I'm led here, no place to run or hide. Thoughts of today fill my head, and thoughts of way back then. I thought the past was forgotten, done. Little did I know that it would come back to haunt me like this. I hadn't really meant to tell her
How can you say that and then leave? Ignore me when I call your name. Knowing you've just hurt me so bad. I can feel the paranoia kicking in. I've tried to avoid this for so long. I really have but it's hard. I can't keep tabs on you, but I still keep trying. I wish I could take control of what you do. Make this easier, make my pain go away. Trouble is I know that would hurt you more and destroy whatever 'us' we have left. My eyes sting like hell from tears that can't come out. It feels like I cry too much but not enough. I know all you'll do is laugh at me. I guess that's what hurts the most.
Kian and Scarlett by YoullNeverUnderstand, literature
Literature
Kian and Scarlett
Ross, Holly and I eat our sandwiches on the grass. Kian laughs.
"I'm not sure of anything" he says.
The ache in the pit of my stomach is back and the light is fading, streaking the sky with ice.
"Well I didn't promise exactly" Scarlett says
She's been looking at darkness, he is sitting on a rock beside the water. Kian stares into the fire, his face highlighted in the rain
"Please stay" she whimpers
"I'm disappointed in you Scarlett, you promised me"
"You made your choices" She replied.
You knew I didn't need him, even when my life was falling apart in front of my eyes.
"Perhaps your right" Scarlett said uncertainly, "How did it go so
It's not even fair. You have it all and i'm stuck here with nothing. When you left you took with you almost every part of me. You took away my reason to breathe. Yet you don't even realize. Since you left, I've hardly left my room. Haven't left the house. Not if I could help it. You however, have hardly been home. I've heard about your adventures, all the places you've been. It kills me that i'm not there to experience it with you. I doubt you've ever given me a second thought. My name is just a name to you now. When before it meant so much. I believed in us, I thought you did too. Then bigger and better things came along. I never knew you we
It all started on that fateful day six years ago. There, was that line good enough? When they told me to write about things, I didn't imagine it was going to be this hard. I knew it was never going to be easy. Maybe I didn't expect thinking about it to bring up as many emotions as it has. Anyway whilst trying to start the story, and all that was in my head was 'once upon a time' but I assure you this ain't no fairytale. Far from it. I guess I should introduce myself; otherwise I'll just be another person. I guess to you that's all I am. I have a name. Although I heard when people read books they give each character their own name, or relate t
I'm living life within these swarms of people,
but to me they are all just strangers by my side.
I'm laughing at the jokes that they find funny,
but secretly i'm breaking down inside.
I'm searching for a place where I belong,
but you're the only one who really makes me smile.
I'm hoping for the future that I dream of,
but I know I need to work for it and try.
And now
The illusion has been shattered,
Thrown out the window,
Like that mirror that used to live on your chest of drawers.
You were like my mirror,
I saw in you all the traits I believed I held,
Good and bad.
I discovered alot about myself,
Whilst I was finding out about you.
Rumour has it 'opposites attract',
Maybe we were just too alike.
I didn't ever expect it to be like this.
End like this.
I picked up the pieces of the mirror,
I'm not sure I can do the same now.
I love you more than you'll ever know. You are my life, despite all the crap that comes in between. You make me so mega happy, that the crap almost seems worth it.
Almost.
Things between us are complicated, but i'm beginning to get used to that. Every day is unpredictable, and the ups and downs are pretty huge. Mostly it's my fault, and i'm trying to change.
But change takes time.
You've made alot of promises, i'm not sure you can keep. I wonder how long it will be before you get bored of my lies. I should stop lying really.
But i'm not used to telling the truth.
Sometimes I wish things had worked out differently between us. I often sit and wonder what would have happened, had obstacles not got in the way.
Had things not changed.
Maybe I would be happier, had I made a different decision. Although it's only your happiness that matters. I hope I was right to have left you so blissfully unaware.
To get on with your life.
I'm gonna try not to dwell on it. For had I wanted to change my decision I could have done, at any given moment. I still could, but i don't think I will.
Life goes on.
I used to think you had it perfect. Now I realise I may be wrong. Your just better at hiding everything than most people I know.
Makes me jealous. To be honest.
I've begun to realise you don't see what I see, but maybe i'm just seeing wrong. Whilst I was caught up in the perfection that you portray so damn easily.
To you it's just how your life has been.
Truth is, I don't know you well enough yet. Maybe you won't let me into your life, or maybe i just don't want to be there. I'm not entirely sure.
Guess we'll see what happens.
how did it ever come to this? by flawedfairytale, literature
Literature
how did it ever come to this?
[tone]
'are you crying?
'i thought-'
'-what?'
[the line breaks]
'that we were-'
'-that we were what?'
'something more than-'
'-more than casual sex?'
[beat]
'you're perfect'
'for god's sake, please, stop saying that.'
'you're perfect. we could be perfect.
[breath]
but-
the last thing i wanted to do was hurt you.'
[silence]
'it's my fault.'
'how can you say-'
'i was standing there.
[beat]
i was watching, as you touched her more intimately than we ever did.'
'you-'
'-and it felt like everything stopped.
i forgot where i was, my body stopped and my breath stammered out of my lips and i didn't notice my friends hugging me
"Ryan, hurry up!" Jessica called for her bestfriend
"Just a minute," Ryan lumbered after her at the top of a hill. "Lemme rest first!"
Jessica laughed. She put her hands on her hips as she looked up at the sky. It was beautiful. Clear even if there were a few stars. The fireworks were going to start any minute and she did not want Ryan to miss or forget this. She wanted him to hurry up; she was getting excited.
"You really should get out and run more often", She watched Ryan lie on the ground, panting. "Your stamina is---"
Ryan raised his hand as if to tell her to discontinue. He was the type of person who would stay indoors and play Dota
how we just kind of float on by Awasteof-paint, literature
Literature
how we just kind of float on
every five minutes, all of me stands still and waits for the inevitable: falling into quicksand and coming back as someone else. every day i'm a different person due to the additions of experiences to my life. one breath can change me drastically; one step forward and i might fall over. and the consequences? permanent damage to the face, develop an ugly fear of mirrors. and so i think about the concept of the future a lot. the invisible doors of experience that we are bound to walk through. thinking about the future is a funny thing. it's like sitting on a swing, swinging forward for a second, but coming back quickly to realize that you're st
As blood pours down my broken wrists, it spells out the end. I watch it as it meets the water; the shapes remind me why I am here. You may not know this but youre the reason I didn't do this many years ago. You fed me your lies and made me swallow them, like a poison, whose effects would take many years to wear off. Now that they've finally worn off part of me wishes they hadnt. If Id never seen through your lies, maybe I would still be happy. Or at least blissfully unaware. Instead Im preparing for my final goodbye. I just hope you never forget me.
A
- Available: No.
- Age: 17.
- Annoyance: Visa People.
- Allergic: Nothing.
- Animal: Dog.
- Actor: Seth Rogen, Owen Wilson.
B
- Beer: None.
- Birthday/Birthplace: 29th January, England.
- Best Friends: Seth.
- Body Part on opposite sex: Arms.
- Best feeling in the world: Love.
- Blind or Deaf: I can't choose.
- Best weather: Sunshine.
- Been in Love: Yes.
- Been bitched out?: Idk.
- Been on stage?: Yes.
- Believe in yourself?: Sometimes.
- Believe in life on other planets: Sort of.
- Believe in miracles: Not really.
- Believe in Magic: Idk.
- Believe in God: No.
- Believe in Satan: No.
- Believe in Santa: No.
- Beli
[] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[x] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[X] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[x] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking
[] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[x] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning.
[] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[] Atelophobia -
Words cannot describe how bored I am.....
BLERRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
But these can.....
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[ ] - Dust scares you.
[ ] - Your mother had more than 2 children.
[ ] - You are a smoker.
[x] - You drink a lot.
[x] - You like to write.
[ ] - You are religious.
[ ] - You like to burn candles.
[x] - You prefer juice or water over soda.
[ ] - You have ridden a horse.
TOTAL SO FAR = 3
[ ] - You have done drugs.
[ ] - You are currently a drug addict.
[x] - You are very artistic.
[x] - You like stuffed animals.
[x] - You are attracted to shiny things.
[ ]